Wednesday, March 26, 2014

A Question of Commitment and also a Prayer

We ought to be rallying behind our church leaders not talking behind their backs about how imperfect they are, not discussing some instance that you felt slighted, and certainly not speculating as to what their problem are could be. We don't have a right to trash talk any church, even if we've chosen to leave it in favor of another.
I've said many times that I disliked the preaching style of one church or another, I might comment on the style of music I prefer or don't prefer, but to dig in deep with personal insults directed at church leadership and structure is plain mean spirited and wrong.
If you find yourself offended that someone didn't notice you, make an effort to forgive them and pray that God will help them see more of the people around them who desire personal moments with them.
If you believe someone said something offensive, ask God for help to forgive them, don't walk around talking about how so and so said such and such so you left the church.
We are intended to help one another when we stumble. In effort to keep your footing, don't stir up stumbling blocks for your fellows, but be a positive example of love and life giving words.
Two of the most critical and most often offended people I've ever met have been the source of the most negative speech against the church and both of these people take the Lord's name in vain in an over abundant manner, during every conversation I have with them. These people may not even realize what they're saying, but they've been very clear to point out how many Christians have offended them. It causes me to believe that if I asked why they use Gods name in vain, then I might offend them right out of the church. Or, should I be offended out by their language? Which offense is greater, their frequent OMG or my distaste of it?
Why are we so quick to hop churches when somebody says something that we don't like? Do not we realize there will be a negative Nancy, Debbie downer, doubting Thomas, sons of thunder, tax collecting Matthew, Mary of the serving nurturer, Martha the relationship nurturer, James the Just, even Judas the traitor in every congregation? Jesus has asked us to love one another, not in our perfection and righteousness but in his grace and forgiveness. You don't have to pretend you don't notice sin, but pray and seek God's will with  and a heart towards forgiveness, remembering that God has forgiven them, and me, and you. It's my honor to chose not to be offended by my brothers and sisters. It's my joy to love my neighbors who have hurt me. It's for His glory that I chose to forgive those who cause me pain.
Let's have a prayer.
Heavenly Father.
Loving, forgiving, gracious, God.
Please help me remember that when I was filthy with sin and disgrace, you loved me. You love me because your righteousness has covered my sin. You washed me of my filth and made me yours when I could never be worthy of your love or your mercy.
Thank you God for your ever flowing, never ending mercy, your fountain of forgiveness, your unending love. Thank you for showing me what it means to forgive, help me to keep forgiving because it's always so hard.
Thank you for teaching me to love. Not just for the sake of loving someone who needs love, bit because loving people is the sweetest pleasure I know. Thank you for giving me the strength to love, when I am too weak. Thank you for giving me the courage to love when I'm afraid it will hurt too much. Thank you for loving me and letting Your love shine into my broken heart.
Oh God. Thank you for teaching me that forgiveness is better for me than even the person I'm forgiving.
Is it possible that you find such sweet pleasure in forgiving and loving me, as I find when I forgive and love? How can it even be? Thank you for the rain that causes the sun shine to seems warmer and brighter in its absence. Lord, please promise me that the sun will shine again in my world. That the pain will fade and your love will fill me up and overflow from me.
Thank you for your will and your plan and your purpose for my life. Help me to see it and to trust in you.

Saturday, January 11, 2014

Good Morning!

Hi old buddy old pal!
I have no idea how to post a blog from my phone... and we don't have another source for internet at home. There are a couple of options here; I could write the posts and save them until I can upload, or figure out why my phone doesn't have hotspot abilities. If I can make my phone be a hotspot then I'm afraid I'll be purchasing a LOT more data than I already exceed each month. If I could refrain from logging on except when posting then that could be a solution. Just some thoughts. Beyond all of that, we've had so many changes in our lives that you might know nothing about! Allow me to fill you in, just a little.
In Oct or Nov of 2012 we did get moved into our bigger and older house. It is already brimming with stuff and junk that I should learn to get rid of. My huge garage is not yet organized but I foresee a little time in the future to accomplish that. Soon after our move we welcomed a new baby sibling to the two darling foster children who I mentioned before. Our lives were overflowing with love and happiness and I found myself asking a question that I'll never ask again; "Why is this life we have so full of love and so nearly perfect?" I just had to ask. I was waiting for reality to break in and steal my dreams-come-true.
On June 23, 2013 my beautiful mother was killed in a car accident. I sob even now as I write those terrible words. She was my closest girl friend, my biggest champion, the most devoted and enthusiastic grandmother, the most enthusiastic everything, for that matter. She was radiant and vibrant and the world is emptier, colder, and dulled without her in it. She added her own shimmer to the sunshine. The world does not know the sparkle it has lost.
3 months after losing Mom our children were removed from our home and we don't know what that future looks like. We have contacted attorneys and are trying to move forward with hiring them to sort out this situation. We're allowed to see and visit our children and we know they are safe and loved, I'll post the details separately so look for that in you have an interest.
  We've just come through our first round of holidays without Mom and we've all survived. I have spent time visiting my dad and I'm so grateful for the loved ones I have left, especially my husband. He is so loving and kind. He is gentle and caring, hard working, committed to our love, he envelopes me with his support and comfort. He is my most treasured gift from God. I also have found comfort in the rest of my family, especially my brother and sister-in-law who understand this profound loss as only they could. My group of close personal friends, some of whom I consider sisters, have lifted me when I couldn't carry on, they sob with me and allow their hearts to break as mine has. They have loved my mom and my children along side me and they feel the ache that is left behind. Among these ashes I have found such beautiful treasures and the pain makes pleasure of it so much sweeter.
God has cloaked me in His comfort, He has soothed my pain with His love and care. I know WHO holds my world together and I trust my Heavenly Father with every tear and all my pain. I know that He does not want my heart to hurt, I know that he will work all of this for my good, and for the good of our children. I do not fear the future, whatever it may hold.
Please check back for updates on our story. I would love for you to watch with us as this happy ending unfolds.

Monday, November 19, 2012

Don't Be A Statistic

Be the one who stays despite their feelings and desires, be the one who says; "I choose to put my commitment to love honor and cherish ahead of my desire to feel good or follow my dreams".   Your commitment is not to stay married, it is to stay in love, in love with the one you promised and swore and vowed with all your heart to love forever - until you die. So for awhile you may feel like a resistant groom in an arranged marriage, you might look at your wife and only see who she isn't. Eventually, though, you'll start to laugh with her about something your child said, thenyou'll laugh with her over something that you wouldn't laugh at with anyone else; you'll start seeing who she is, things that she does just because she knows you like it, or sees you need it. You'll feel yourself loving her in a way that you've never loved before, you'll love her for her and not for  what you can get from her.  You'll thank God you did what was right in his eyes. The thought of what you almost threw away will sicken you to the core. If you do leave, all of this may take place anyway and it'll be too late, you'll realize what you threw away, and it will STILL sicken you to your core. Your pride will keep you in your seat but your heart will never be the same.  This works for wives to husbands too.

Thursday, October 25, 2012

Seriously though...

You've got to check this out! It's something I've just come across online and I think I'll order one for my nursery, another for my living room, and maybe one for the kitchen too!
There are a couple of other companies that make and market these but this one;
The Painted House - patterned paint rollers!
seems to have good quality, or even the same patterns, for the best price. You do pay more fr shipping though since it comes from the UK.
Just go see if it's not worth it!

Ps, the house next door goes up for sale tomorrow!!! Won't you be my neighbor??

Sunday, August 26, 2012

On a Roll!

In case we're not facebook friends, I had to post this.

Today I dedicated this video to all the two-timin', sneakin' around, cheaters out there.

Seems like there's one in every family.

Thursday, August 23, 2012

To Whom It May Concern...

If you're not a Christian, not attempting to be Christlike, then this is not for you. IF you are a Christian there are a few things I think that we as a nation are forgetting...

1. Respect your political leaders.
Even Saul was chosen by God to be king and David who was next in line by God's design was not willing to harm him. He ran for his own life but he did not threaten Saul's.

2. Respect your elders.
We have elders for a reason and I am the first to mentally yell at the older folks. Not the people I know personally but the bad drivers and the oblivious walkers. No matter how wrong they are I am wrong too.

3. Don't judge the sins around you.
Though I wouldn't steal someones husband and/or kill to cover it up, I have never been called a woman after God's own heart.  I don't really even know what that is supposed to mean but David, king, adulterer, & murderer was called just that. This man danced (naked!) through his city in worshipful praise to my God. I don't think that Gods is expecting that from any of us today but... Would I if he did?

4. Be worthy of the calling you have received!
Live your life in a way that rings honor and glory to God, even in the eyes of those who do not know him. Avoid appearance of evil, most of us have the basics down; don't drink, swear, cheat, steal, and we teach our kids not to push, hit, lie, even chew with their mouths open! What we teach them by example though, is to talk about people who have offended us, to be defiant when we dislike the rules or the leaders, that's its okay to be rude, cutting, short, or sarcastic to our spouses, and usually we don't say sorry for any of these things.

As a Christian, it is so important to do the right thing, especially when it's against our will. Especially when it's not a "written" rule.
Did you just step around litter on the sidewalk? Laugh when the Librarian shushed you? Sneer at the old woman who cut you off at Walmart? As Christians, it is our honor to be the example of Christ, especially when everyone else isn't.

Sunday, August 19, 2012

No Apologies!

I have a firm, no guilt, policy for my blog... Never say sorry for not writing. I've read it a hundred times on other blogs and it ALWAYS sounds so dumb in my head. Like I was waiting on the telephone on hold for 3 weeks. So sorry, but I won't say sorry! I love you though and I am blogging in my heart every day!

In other news, I think we might be moving! We've been led on by a lender, with a closing date that came and went, for nearly 60 days! So we finally got smart and we're talking with another lender. We should have a definite answer on Wednesday...with a closing date I hope!

Our ideal situation is that we move out of our tiny but 4 years new cookie cutter house and into a spacious and rather interesting 42 year old house. Oh the kitchen! Oh the rec room! Oh the huge garage and giant shed in the back yard! I am ready for some counter space, an extra cupboard or two, and some shelves to organize all my crap in the garage! I have totes, three or four, filled with gift bags, tissue paper, shirt boxes, and loads of ribbon. I love to wrap gifts, but in my current situation I would have to be an acrobat to get to my supplies! Don't even let me start on the stash of Easter/Valentine's Day fun I have in another tote or the millions of totes filled with Christmas decor. I will myself to purge the stuff that I have held onto and not used. This is going to be so refreshing!