No Apologies!

I have a firm, no guilt, policy for my blog... Never say sorry for not writing. I've read it a hundred times on other blogs and it ALWAYS sounds so dumb in my head. Like I was waiting on the telephone on hold for 3 weeks. So sorry, but I won't say sorry! I love you though and I am blogging in my heart every day!

In other news, I think we might be moving! We've been led on by a lender, with a closing date that came and went, for nearly 60 days! So we finally got smart and we're talking with another lender. We should have a definite answer on Wednesday...with a closing date I hope!

Our ideal situation is that we move out of our tiny but 4 years new cookie cutter house and into a spacious and rather interesting 42 year old house. Oh the kitchen! Oh the rec room! Oh the huge garage and giant shed in the back yard! I am ready for some counter space, an extra cupboard or two, and some shelves to organize all my crap in the garage! I have totes, three or four, filled with gift bags, tissue paper, shirt boxes, and loads of ribbon. I love to wrap gifts, but in my current situation I would have to be an acrobat to get to my supplies! Don't even let me start on the stash of Easter/Valentine's Day fun I have in another tote or the millions of totes filled with Christmas decor. I will myself to purge the stuff that I have held onto and not used. This is going to be so refreshing!

Don't stay together for the kids sake. Stay in love for the kids sake.

Pride - which doesn't let us apologize
Selfishness - which convinces us to put our own "happiness" (more like "feel good" moments) before that of our families or spouse
Arrogance - convinces us that we are worth the pain we put others through

You don't have a right to be happy. You have a right to love your spouse.
You don't deserve the first apology, you deserve to give it.
You are not worth the pain you cause others.
You are not incapable of denying yourself.
You don't think its fair to stay together for the kids sake? Don't. Stay in love for the kids sake.

This song was recorded by the Dixie Chicks and it so applies to the DECADE that it took for me to balance my life after my parents divorce.

I've sure enjoyed the rain but I'm looking forward to the sun
You have to feel the pain when you lose the love you gave someone
I thought by now the time would take away these lonely tears
I hope you're doin' fine all alone but where do I go from here
Cause without you I'm not okay
And without you I've lost my way
My heart's stuck in 2nd place
Without you
Well I never thought I'd be here without you by my side
It seems unreal to me, that the life you promised was a lie
You made it look so easy, turning love into memories
I guess you got what you wanted, but what about me

I Miss You, My Friends.

Captain America went to Afghanistan in December 2011, he returned in April of this year to find his household in the process of growing! I've mentioned a little of this, that we were getting our foster care license, but I didn't tell you (did I?) that it was due to these sweet little babies I have been baby sitting. We signed our contracts a couple of weeks ago and hope to have placement...soon!

In other news, my darling husband went traveling some more for two weeks in July, this time to Alaska. The military has many ways of fulfilling the dreams of those who are honored to serve. The trip was amazing and I'd like to share a photo or two, with you!

Here he is in the Denali National Park - on this day he was supposed to go jet boating and panning for gold, there was a problem with their driver and they didn't make it in time so instead they hiked around the park for a bit and took some wonderful pictures.

This is a picture of the view from the fitness trail on base.

Must be the life!

Sadly, I can post no pictures of our sweet little friends but just imagine the cutest babies in the world, and then double the cuteness and they're just a little cuter than that!

Now, about food. I'm feeding these people I live with (Captain America and his miniature) all day long, so I'm getting fat fat fat! I've been sick in bed for 4 days and still haven't lost a pound. Enough is enough. We've started on a vegetarian lifestyle due to my athletic husband and his never ending quest to be better than perfect (more about that later), and so we did 2 months of vegetarianism before the captain went to Alaska. We really liked it. So now we want to try it for a year. Eeek!

I'd like to leave you with this; try the Morning Star Farms Spicy Black Bean Burger. Yum Yum Yum.

Happy Easter!

We saved our Easter for a week so that we could share it with Captain America!

He's home!!!

So Much to Tell You...Yet Nothing I Can Say!

We are starting the process of becoming foster parents!

So here is what I can tell you about any children who might someday be our foster kids.

Nothing.

Okay we can tell you if we have foster kids but that's it. No names, no ages, no pics, no details. That's just the way it is. It's for their protection.

Please be excited with us anyway because WE ARE WAAAAY EXCITED!

Also, something else I can't tell you about:

We are saving Easter for next weekend. Someone very special will be here and it just wouldn't be the same without our special someone. Tell ya bout it next weekend!

GIVEAWAY!

There will be a worthless prize presented to the person who has made the most comments by Easter!

Obviously you will have to supply your address and not comment anonymously. Other terms and conditions may apply.

Springtime!

It certainly feels like Spring in Missouri tonight and I love it. Even the birds are singing!

I think I'll go plant some fake flowers.